I remember sitting on the lawn outside the girl’s dorm my sophomore year in college. We were having a fall revival and one of the professors was speaking, John Castelein. Over the course of my life, I can probably recall about 6 sermons I’ve heard. Nothing against sermons, but many of them begin to blend together, while a few of them create an incredible impact engaging the heart, mind, imagination, emotions, intellect, and physical. That is what happened that night.
I remember him saying that God can handle our doubts, our questions, our anger, but what God cannot handle is our apathy.
Since then, I have come to realize that apathy is one of the greatest killers in life. When you just don’t give a damn anymore, that is when you cease to live life.
I have sensed that creeping into my life over the last couple of years, much like gray storm clouds of gloom and apathy slowly moving in, covering the blue sky, sun, and dimming the light.
I have a choice… to either wake up and seek a life of passion again, or continue down the same path believe the lie that things will change and renew on their own. The opposite of apathy has got to be passion.
So, I began to ask myself, what am I passionate about? What have I been passionate about? I have also begun to pray that God would push back the clouds of apathy and restore my passion (read Psalm 51).
Two things:
- Mission
- Freedom
I’ve begun to realize I have been living day to day without a mission in my life. Dangerous. I am praying about this now, but I believe God is restoring a vision and a mission in my life… not completely unrelated to my previous post.
I also believe God has led me to explore freedom in a new home business. I have been working from home full-time for 4 years now, and I am moving in a direction now with a growing passion for freedom that involves a home business that I truly believe in. You can find out more by going here: www.MHHF.com
I don’t know if you’ve felt the same, but there is an excitement that awakens your heart when you begin to take steps away from the routine, mundane, and move toward mission, freedom, and passion.